I have this reoccurring dream
this dream that God put inside of me
it swirls and turns up in my head
and all I know is I want it
You promised redemption
You promised freedom
I know that it is coming
I know You are coming soon
my path with God isn’t a normal one
it isn’t the automatic turn that so many felt
mine was the yelling and cursing kind
the one that I fought for a long time
the one where you keep coming back to it because you know it is better
but you just can’t help but struggle with it
staying up late at night trying to make sense of every little bit
trying to rationalize everything that you’ve gone through
trying to justify my past and correct my future
my path is the crooked one with thorns on it
the one where you are screaming every step of the way because it hurts
that’s my path
the one like in those old cartoons where someone would be walking in a deep dark forest all alone
and the kid keeps hearing these noises in the bushes off the path
and the kid keeps seeing these beaty eyes through the darkness
but my path is where those eyes are right beside me
the monsters along the path aren’t just eyeing you from their own safety
the monsters are sacrificing themselves to get to me
jumping out at me every chance they get
and with every leap they take a little bit of my flesh
and the noise is the monsters all laughing as I keep trying to walk
that’s my path
confidence and reluctance builds in the same conditions
you either build one and forget the other
or maybe you’re like me and you build them both
but they wait for their times to shine
freedom is a gift received through perseverance
and that’s why people give up on their faith
that’s why people live defeated
that is why I have to be different
that is why I have to make choices most others won’t
that even through my path I won’t relent
redemption came through a similar path
one man having His flesh completely ripped from the muscle
beautiful imagery, my flesh the sin that covers me
and the man that see the monsters remove it from me
even after he washed this flesh and threw no stone
